Wow, it has been a long time since I have written. I had to reread some of my older posts to get a picture of what my life has been like over the last few months. I will say that being in Baltimore has been a mix of good and harsh, light and heavy. It has been mostly drama free but for a few drops here and there. I did get asked on a date which was fun, but was doing a dating fast and had to turn the fine bloke down. I thought for sure he would do what he said and call me back once the fast was over, but I never heard from him. I am working on not initiating with guys, so I didn't feel it was ok for me to try to contact him. I wonder what I am doing wrong that men do not notice me. Not sure there is much more I can do now that I am not initiating, anyone have any ideas?

I have some new friends from church now. They are solid, lacking in drama, and wonderful to talk to. My other friends are around and supportive as I continue to put my feet back on the ground. And I am a nanny to two beautiful little girls. I love to put Coldplay on to Strawberry Swing and dance around the room, the little one in my arms, the big one taking it all in.

Life is getting better....but in my last blog I said I was getting used to being in my skin....now I am trying to love my skin. It is hard! But God is good and I will allow Him to love me even now as I can't.