"I'm engaged!" was the message left on my Facebook wall from my dear friend! A changed status from "single" to "in relationship with" occurred for someone else. "We are officially engaged!" Came the message through my cell phone along with smiling faces and a ring on hand. Bombarded by life, I find myself getting caught up in the "why God's" and the "how comes" as I try to walk through this life. I am not busy with life so I can't be distracted from the fact that many people are doing what I wish I could be doing. I am left with a sadness as another friend finds their soul mate, although I beam with joy and give hugs to show my support. But there is a bigger picture here. God's picture is showing through. There is no way I thought I would be going through what I am going through right now...recovering from an episode of Bi-Polar which has set me on a path so different than what I wanted. I expected to be married by 24, doing God's work on the mission field or in Baltimore in the inner city. I expected to be living out West and finding a soul mate out there. But I am actually blessed to be single right now. To be going through what I am going through with my family and not man. I am single, able to travel, able to plan for myself, able to work through my issues with God and with my illness without having someone else's baggage to work through. I am able to drive across the country with one of my best guy friends, a dream we have had for the past 4 years. I am able to work on my mind, get settled in Baltimore, plan trips out west, nanny and love the girls I will be watching without distraction. I will be able to join a new church, start a new life, and join in the joy of my friends' engagements because my life is happening the way God plans it to be happening. I am lucky! Really I am!