No Shoulds here...

Vacation is always hard on me for some reason. I love the adventure, and getting to where I am going, but coming home is just a pain. Getting back into a routine after being our of one for 2 weeks is killer. I want to fall back on all my old vices, coffee, coffee, coffee, and push through the morning hours until the girls I nanny go down for their naps. Then I can go down for mine and boy, do I ever. I have beaten the coffee addiction finally, but I drank some this morning to give me extra energy to face the little girls who have not seen me for 2 weeks. Part of me was excited to see them, but the other part just was scared. First day back when watching little kids is always hard as the routine has been botched a bit on vacation....and rightly so!!!! When I was little and visiting my Grandparents, life just was serene. Family lunches and dinners, late night walks in the Indiana summer time, sleeping in and watching cartoons. All bets are off on vacation, so I was expecting things to be hard. But things have gone pretty smoothly. I have laid low and stood back as the girls have gotten more used to me in the house again while their mom is here. My boss rocks! She helped me put the kids down for their naps before heading off for errands. Both girls took a bit to warm up to me again. At 16 months and 3, it takes that long I suppose. And now we are off and running. The little one is fond of saying my name which is amazing. I think I get stuck in the "how am I ever going to's" and the "what if's" I also get lost in the "should'ves"....really lost. As a nanny, I am teaching these little ones to be proud of who they are, to try their hardest, to be all they can be and then some. I should learn some of my lessons for myself. Prehaps one day I will.