My Story

My story starts 10 years ago when I was first diagnosed with Bipolar and put in a hospital for 2 weeks. After finding the perfect drug (Lithium) for me I was allowed out of the hospital and spent the next 7 years in emotional peace. 2 years ago a therapist told me that I may not be bipolar....that I should talk to my Doctor and go off my meds since it is bad for your liver to keep lithium in your system. Once talking to my Doctor he did not think it was a good idea but that if I was to go off meds I would need to be under strick supervision. I began to go off my meds in July of that year and by Feb of the next I was drug free and feeling fine. A year later I began the decent up into a mania with energy and excitement I had not felt in many years. What followed after that was a depression I had also not felt for many years. 9 months ago I experienced a mixed episode that was mania and depression put together. I was surrounded by people who had never seen bipolar at its worse. I did not sleep for 5 weeks and grew more and more paranoid and anorexic and filled with suicidal idiation in my mixed mood state. It is by the grace of God that my parents came and put me in a hospital where I was placed under care and supervision as well as on meds again. NEVER GO OFF YOUR MEDS! I am now in recovery and very glad to be on meds and alive and sharing my story for others to read and take part in. This blog is to be interactive and hopeful, becuase when you are in the midst of the heaving moods it is hard to see a way out. There is...you are not alone.